The articles for this week's reading in tech class focused on how teachers can improve their teaching by watching video footage of themselves. Both authors seemed to take a social justice approach to classroom instruction, and echoed the ideas we encounter in many of our other classes: that to reach learners of diverse backgrounds, we must be rigorous and inquisitive with our own teaching practices, and consider ways to enrich our curriculum and classroom management tools.
I recently filmed two days of my teaching for my PACT learning segment. I watched the videos last week, and found the footage very helpful. It was encouraging to note that I did not cringe during the whole segment, although there were certainly a few cringe-worthy moments. I came away with a few solid ideas about areas for further development in my teaching:
1) Voice: My voice sounded high to me, which may be partly due to the sound quality of the camera. However, I do want to work on projecting more when I speak to the class. I think this is easier the more relaxed that I am -- I am banking on the fact that this is a function of teaching over time.
2) Annunciation: Related to voice/tone, I noticed that I often ate my words at the end of a sentence when I was giving instructions. I chalk this one up to tentativeness as well, but it has been helpful to keep this in mind over the last few days. I have made a point of fully pronouncing all my words and speaking as clearly as possible.
3) Gaze: Along with eating my words, I noticed that I would glance down if I felt unsure about what I was saying. This also lent a tentative quality to my stance, which is not a good quality when you are standing in front of urban youth.
4) Lastly, I of course noticed which students I wasn't noticing during the lesson. I imagine that this will be an area to work on for all my time as a teacher, and in this sense, I think that videotaping is very helpful.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Monday, February 16, 2009
Dreams from My Father
I am reading Barack Obama’s first book, Dreams from My Father. He is a very reflective writer, able to depict his thought process as it matures and deepens.
I am still in the first section of the book, “Origins,” where he writes about growing up in Hawaii and Indonesia, and attending college in L.A. and New York. The unifying thread in this section is Obama’s search for a racial identity. As we all now know, his mother was white, his father was Kenyan, his step-father was Indonesian, and he was born in a Hawaii struggling with its own racial identity.
As Obama tries to define who he is socially, academically, and culturally, he writes honestly about his less noble emotions and actions. Obama was not always the self-confident, assured, well-spoken man that he is today. He writes about defining himself in opposition to the only other Black student in his elementary school class, and later, of the anger he felt towards white people and the ambiguity he felt towards his own white grandparents.
One section of the book in particular caught my attention. It made me think of the students that I teach and of many of our Berkeley discussions about power, authority, and language.
When he is in high school, Obama brings a couple of white friends to a “black party” and witnesses their discomfort. Afterwards, one of the white boys comments, “‘You know man . . . that really taught me something. I mean, I can see how it must be tough for you and Ray sometimes, at school parties . . . being the only black guys and all’” (84). This remark sparks a strong reaction for Obama. He writes,
". . . I had begun to see a new map of the world, one that was frightening in its simplicity, suffocating in its implications. We were always playing on the white man’s court . . . If the principal, or the coach, or a teacher, or Kurt, wanted to spit in your face, he could, because he had power and you didn’t. If he decided not to, if he treated you like a man or came to your defense, it was because he knew that the words you spoke, the clothes you wore, the books you read, your ambitions and desires, were already his. Whatever he decided to do, it was his decision to make, not yours, and because of that fundamental power he held over you, because it preceded and would outlast his individual motives and inclinations, any distinction between good and bad whites held negligible meaning. In fact, you couldn’t even be sure that everything you had assumed to be an expression of your black, unfettered self – the humor, the song, the behind-the-back pass – had been freely chosen by you. At best these things were a refuge; at worst, a trap. Following this maddening logic, the only thing you could choose as your own was withdrawal into a smaller and smaller coil of rage, until being black meant only the knowledge of your own powerlessness, of your own defeat. And the final irony: Should you refuse this defeat and lash out at your captors, they would have a name for that too, a name that could cage you just as good. Paranoid. Militant. Violent. Nigger" (85).
This passage is obviously upsetting to read. Obama’s views on race changed, deepened, matured, and grew more complex and nuanced due to the people around him and his reflective and inquisitive nature. But his sentiments here make me think of many things: of the readings from our Urban Ed class last semester and from our ESL class this semester; of a video I watched last year called “The Color of Fear,” a discussion on race between eight racially diverse men; and most urgently, of the students in the schools where I teach. Which students feel this way consciously? Subconsciously? I believe that it is a heavy and toxic burden to carry.
I am still in the first section of the book, “Origins,” where he writes about growing up in Hawaii and Indonesia, and attending college in L.A. and New York. The unifying thread in this section is Obama’s search for a racial identity. As we all now know, his mother was white, his father was Kenyan, his step-father was Indonesian, and he was born in a Hawaii struggling with its own racial identity.
As Obama tries to define who he is socially, academically, and culturally, he writes honestly about his less noble emotions and actions. Obama was not always the self-confident, assured, well-spoken man that he is today. He writes about defining himself in opposition to the only other Black student in his elementary school class, and later, of the anger he felt towards white people and the ambiguity he felt towards his own white grandparents.
One section of the book in particular caught my attention. It made me think of the students that I teach and of many of our Berkeley discussions about power, authority, and language.
When he is in high school, Obama brings a couple of white friends to a “black party” and witnesses their discomfort. Afterwards, one of the white boys comments, “‘You know man . . . that really taught me something. I mean, I can see how it must be tough for you and Ray sometimes, at school parties . . . being the only black guys and all’” (84). This remark sparks a strong reaction for Obama. He writes,
". . . I had begun to see a new map of the world, one that was frightening in its simplicity, suffocating in its implications. We were always playing on the white man’s court . . . If the principal, or the coach, or a teacher, or Kurt, wanted to spit in your face, he could, because he had power and you didn’t. If he decided not to, if he treated you like a man or came to your defense, it was because he knew that the words you spoke, the clothes you wore, the books you read, your ambitions and desires, were already his. Whatever he decided to do, it was his decision to make, not yours, and because of that fundamental power he held over you, because it preceded and would outlast his individual motives and inclinations, any distinction between good and bad whites held negligible meaning. In fact, you couldn’t even be sure that everything you had assumed to be an expression of your black, unfettered self – the humor, the song, the behind-the-back pass – had been freely chosen by you. At best these things were a refuge; at worst, a trap. Following this maddening logic, the only thing you could choose as your own was withdrawal into a smaller and smaller coil of rage, until being black meant only the knowledge of your own powerlessness, of your own defeat. And the final irony: Should you refuse this defeat and lash out at your captors, they would have a name for that too, a name that could cage you just as good. Paranoid. Militant. Violent. Nigger" (85).
This passage is obviously upsetting to read. Obama’s views on race changed, deepened, matured, and grew more complex and nuanced due to the people around him and his reflective and inquisitive nature. But his sentiments here make me think of many things: of the readings from our Urban Ed class last semester and from our ESL class this semester; of a video I watched last year called “The Color of Fear,” a discussion on race between eight racially diverse men; and most urgently, of the students in the schools where I teach. Which students feel this way consciously? Subconsciously? I believe that it is a heavy and toxic burden to carry.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Imaginary Friend
Today in class our 11th grade students presented their "identity quilts," which they made after we read Alice Walker's short story "Everyday Use." Students designed the quilts (materials: construction paper, scissors, glue, magazines) to show how the outside world perceives them versus how they perceive themselves.
When student J. stood up in front of the class to present his quilt, we all noticed that the center of his pattern -- representing his innermost self -- said "Tobey." He explained to us that Tobey is his imaginary friend who possesses all the qualities student J. does not. I guess this would also be called an alter-ego.
When student J. stood up in front of the class to present his quilt, we all noticed that the center of his pattern -- representing his innermost self -- said "Tobey." He explained to us that Tobey is his imaginary friend who possesses all the qualities student J. does not. I guess this would also be called an alter-ego.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Attribution
Actually, I got the idea for the blog title from the librarian at Redwood Day School, where I used to work. She went through the MUSE program in 1994, and she talked about her first attempt at blogging as being like a "burnt pancake." In fact, that's the name of her blog. So when we made blogs in class, that's what jumped to mind -- and it seemed to apply to teaching as well, although I took out the "burnt" part to allow for those really good days.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Why First Pancakes?
Starting to teach sometimes feels like standing in front of a hot stove with a bowl of batter: that first pancake can be disasterous, but you get better as you go.
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